Thursday, July 14, 2011

I believe in you

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"I love you, daddy.  Don't give up."

Those were the last words I said to my father as I hung up the phone earlier this afternoon.  Large tears streamed down my cheeks as I slumped forward; head into hands.

My father  is now scheduled to have yet another major surgery day after tomorrow (6/15) and will have his bowels redirected (again).  The doctor also plans to conduct several biopsies as he's concerned with how slow my dad's healing process is going, along with the loss of appetite (again) and the constant sleeping.

I tried to be strong for my dad as he expressed his fears through anger, then finally through tears to where he could barely speak.  I felt utterly helpless, my friends.  Utterly.  (Tears welling up again) So, as I sat at my little antique desk twirling around my emotions regarding all of this, I pulled out my paintbrush again to paint something for my dad.  (See above)

I believe in you, daddy!  You can SOAR anywhere you want to go, sick or not.


[This is where I walk away from my desk/blog and out into the rain to hide my tears....]
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26 comments

  1. oh you poor sweetheart,, I'm so sorry for your heavy heart,, your love for your Daddy will keep with you with him forever in your heart,,i hope the doctors will find the answers to help him heal,,

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  2. no words my friend...just hugs. and Im sending a bunch your way

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  3. Hugs my friend. Keep believing and encouraging your father. You are a wonderful daughter. Saying a little prayer for you and your father right now.

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  4. Thinking of you today. Sorry your dad has been suffering. Hugs!

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  5. Sending love and prayers your way!

    Big Hugs
    Giggles

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  6. oh sophia, my friend. i am so sorry that you have to go through this. just want to give you a big hug....it's good to put your feelings on paper. thinking of you - and your dad.

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  7. Big warm hug! Please be strong and kind to yourself. Without caring for yourself you exhaust yourself caring for your Dad and others. Yes, one can soar nearly anywhere. me even in the USA (joke) Keep you in my thoughts and send healing vibes.

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  8. Oh sophia I hope you know that I am praying for you and your father. It is important to be strong for him right now and the card you made shows that you have a strength you do not even realize. Take care. :-)

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  9. Thinking of you and your dad. The piece you did for your dad id beautiful. x

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  10. This brought tears to my eyes. I've been there. It's no fun. Hang in there! Not sure if you are a religious person but staying close to God is what helped me through my fathers hard times. Stay strong!

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  11. My thoughts are with you and your dad....I know all too well what you are going through and he too.....hang in there ....and take care,,,,all the best to your dad too.

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  12. I love the art that came out of your emotions. Be strong, wishing you all the best at this difficult time.

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  13. No words right now, got a lump in my throat reading this. Thinking of you x

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  14. Sending you love and light that shines upon you and eases the burden on your heart.

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  15. praying for you and your sweet Daddy

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  16. Aw, sweetie it's just so hard sometimes, I know. Hugs and prayers.

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  17. Your dad is lucky to have such a good daughter during such a rough time. Of course it is just as rough for you. Your card is lovely though--I'm sure he'll adore it.

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  18. you are so lucky to have him, and he you. love and many hugs.

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  19. Back to leave more love and care.

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  20. sorry to hear this about your dad. I send you a blog-hug not as good as a real one I know. but I care how all people feel... and I see you are hurting and feeling frustrated.."What can I do?" we all have thought this at times. I will pray for you and your dad. Hang In There Strong.
    KAT

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  21. Thoughts and prayers with you and your family.
    Keeping taking care of yourself too.

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  22. Thinking of you and sending healing thoughts and prayers to you and your Dad and family ~ namaste, Carol

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  23. Sophia ~ glad to hear you will be around for a long time ~ I just had trouble finding the button the second time so I copied it for my second blog ~ thanks for posting on my blog ~ enjoy ~ thanks again for hosting this great site ~ ^_^

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  24. So sorry for the pain that you are going through now. I know exactly the feelings and helplessness that is in your heart and head as I went through this with my Mom...my best friend! Sending prayers and positive thoughts your way...you are strong and will get through this, but remember each moment and cherish it with all of your heart,soul and mind!

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  25. It must be hard to go through something like this. You know there are prayer sending your way, mine included, and to your dad! You, too, don't give up, but keep hope alive! Hugs, Sophia!

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